Peek-a-boo. Digital painting. Lisa Byrne 2009
Behind the Scenes.
Things are happening. But mostly inside. Nothing will show itself from these past weeks for a while. If you know me, you know I usually jump opportunites to get out (in real life or online) and talk to people. Usually activity and hanging out are great for me-since I’ve spent so much time alone, and in bed the past few decades. But right now I need to pull back a little. To disengage. I’m going inward. To examine things.
The other day in class, when I was done with art modeling, I heard a beginning student say “I’m so scared of painting.” I took a moment and told her-its OK, we all are. I know professional painters and sculptors who feel doubt every time they approach new work. And most of the way through it. Maybe even after it’s finished. I think its part of the process. It just feels weird. Like after so much time, the struggle, the fear should lessen, or somehow magically dissipate. It probably never will.
” Do it anyway” I told her.
I think that’s wonderful advice. I know that I come to every project just starring at that blank canvass just trying to figure out which way my mind will bend it. But as you said, the little bit of yourself you put into the painting is the thing that makes each painting special.
As for reaching out, I can totally understand that. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to recover from my years of seclusion and using the internet as my passage to the world. Entertainment, friendship…everything.
I wish you the best of luck in your journey and wanted you to know that you are not alone. Lots of hugs and kisses. -BuddahKitty